Completely aware, yet utterly unconvinced...
by Nicole
(Nova Scotia, Canada)
Just having been diagnosed with Anxiety and depression, and finding out that I am an HSP, I have been wandering Canada, city to city , from useless job to useless job (bartending) for years. At 33 I am overwhelmed with life, and my desire, or lack of desire to truly know what I want my career choice to be. I am very artistic, but feel that pursuing a degree in fine arts at this point in my life is A:too late, and B:not contributing to the world, as there are people out there who need help. I also struggle with the fact that I think I would love to teach elementary children, for they need a strong foundation for their lives, and I believe I can do that for them...BUT (and isn't there always one) Is this my true calling? Will I be good enough? Why do I plague myself with so many self doubts? In my own defense, I feel like I would be, because I can combine my love of art in the classroom for them... WOW...thats a handful......