Gardens

by Divya
(India)

Hi, I find your website very informative. I want to share my experience however small it is! :D

One day,I was very very depressed.Then I remembered a garden being there near our home.I didn't feel like going out anywhere at all... not even on the terrace which I frequent. The terrace, it is so freeing, like I can connect with myself and talk with myself because there is no one around to distract you. It's a very peaceful place.

So, I thought of going out anyway because staying at home doesn't help because I keep ruminating. *sigh*

I went to the garden with my mom and brother. It was just a few buildings away, a walk of 10 minutes. There is something baffling here, before I reached the garden I didn't like walking on the street because I could feel the tension, the distractedness of the pedestrians on the road! It bothers me! They are mostly on the run for college and such:/

Okay now I am approaching the magical garden I've spoken of. Just as soon as I entered the gate I felt a sense of serenity, calm and I felt I had come to a place where I belong to, a place to meet my real friends that is the birds chirping and swinging from one tree branch to another, singing its own song, dancing to its own rhythm without a care in the world, it is in itself, enjoying the world in its own way, just one feeling of bliss.

I can feel so relaxed with beautiful flowers blooming, the sun shining, the grass so soft to walk on, the garden surrounded by tall, shady trees on all sides, it's a heaven for my bruised heart. When I'm there I just can't control myself and I start running on the grass and lying down on a bench to get a glimpse of the blue sky and the vibrant sunshine, I start crying and realize what it means to be alive, it's among these trees that I belong, it's among these birds that I sing that I share my deepest concerns with, no words spoken, everything understood, no need to say, just being there whistling aloud and hearing my own echo from the distant mountain is enough to feel whole again. Here I keep wondering about the vastness of the world God created for me and us for us all, what are we running after money and all this luxury for? When our home is the entire world, when all living beings are one family, why is there so much hatred? Why is man so selfish? I can hear mother nature saying...this..in my heart that pounds and races with delight, nature indeed is the one that takes my breath away and makes me cry with joy...it soothes my soul it gives me hope, comfort in its wide arms covering my entire self...the self beyond this cage of my impermanent body which will definitely and can perish any moment, beyond anything there is...merged in the universal...

The garden is where I belong, among the trees, bees, birds and the ever fragrant cool breeze.

Thank you for this opportunity to share my feelings. I can't express my gratitude. In tears.