Sr Financial Analyst

Grad from top 20 MBA school who joined a program to develop leaders at a Fortune 500 company. I always struggled with mixed feelings: I loved the idea of some day being a business leader with challenging work but hated how I was deeply and constantly evaluated not only on output but on personality traits. Sadly, to the eyes of the evaluators, I did not perform with excellence. I think I felt too much judgement upon myself and that made me nervous. Plus, I think If I fully trusted my "gut" feelings and stood out for myself from the beginning, things could've gone better. Seven years here thinking I had the power to turn things around, but nothing. And it turned much worse after my daughter was born (I was more of a HSP). 2009: Downsizing program and of course I was impacted. Several months before that I had conversations with my supervisor where I made it clear I couldn't take her job plus 1/2 of another job on top of my old responsibilities -and what? of course I was written up. I suggested the idea of a "set-up" to HR too late, when my supervisor (another woman) had all her notes in place to show I was not "flexible". So unfair.
Well, it turns out I found another great job at another great company with amazing teams, and I can't wait to continue being a great career person and climb up when it's time. Also, I play w/ the idea of having my own business and get over with all this corporate crap. I am thinking of some strategies that will not damage my income and my work-life balance. Never dismiss the idea of "taking over the world" (ha ha!)
I am so happy to learn about HSP because I was starting to have low self esteem and negative feelings about myself -- now I know what it is and I can control it... better. By the way my daughter is another HSP (oh my!).